In a few hours it will be 2015 and as much as I try and embrace the new year for me NYE has always been one of my least favorite holidays. Just hearing that song and the countdown stirs in me the deepest sadness. What is it that I can't accept that another year has passed that every job every day on set blurs into
Each other is it a reminder that I haven't done enough? That I squandered the year in
Fleeting moments of happiness? There were plenty of New Years in my 20's where totally obliterated I never even made it until
Midnight. Now older I am fully aware of my surroundings and I can't escape any of it. I do not miss my self destruction
It was not pretty or glamorous in any way shape or form
But it was a friend albeit a dangerous one.
I face 2015 with the knowledge I'm
Surrounded my good friends and that makes it ok so here is to a new one.
Love and Luck
I share your feelings about NYE. It just seems like another event or excuse to party. Like yourself, NYE in my early 20's were spent partying hard like the rest of the crowd, but even then I felt fake for it.
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